Maggie, Phil and I were in the Children’s Cancer Clinic first thing this morning to hear results from the PET scan from Friday afternoon. When Dr. Herrington (filling in for a traveling Dr. Collier) said the words, “Your scans are stable,” you could also hear the proverbial pin drop as we were, quite honestly, surprised. Here’s why:

Two weeks ago during Maggie’s last admission for chemo, Dr. Collier shared with us the results of her most recent CEA (tumor marker), and it sounded truly frightening at 12.4. The previous value corresponding to the last CT scan at Batson (in July) was 4.4 which is modestly above normal. The threshold for an indication of tumor activity is 2.5, but we know through experience Maggie’s “normal” value is much lower. She went from a CEA of 13.0 upon diagnosis down to 0.8 at one point post resection surgeries, radiation, and chemotherapy. Her CEA has been creeping up as tumor burden increases, but we were unprepared to hear 12.4. Dr. Collier decided to schedule a PET scan two weeks earlier than previously planned to see if the internal situation confirmed this rapid increase. Thus, Friday’s scan. (And a little explanation: CEA is not a perfect predictor of tumor activity. It can be released with new tumor growth OR when tumors are under attack. We’re not sure what caused the jump – it could even possibly be a testing error. We’ll continue to have it monitored. We’ll just take it with a bigger grain of salt and a better chunk of faith next time.)

We are relieved to learn Maggie’s current tumor situation is stable. This means no measurable growth in the size of tumors when compared to the previous scan. We’re holding ground. This indicates a positive response to her present chemotherapy, and the plan is to continue with her next admission scheduled for one week from today. We will be enjoying a long overdue family vacation involving ALL FOUR Hanberrys beginning tomorrow morning. How wonderful to be starting a little lighter in the heart!

Thank you all for praying with us through this difficult journey. We’re learning deeper trust with every step. I’ve claimed the beautiful words of Psalm 145:9-10 for this season  (actually the entire chapter). “The LORD is good to all, And His mercies are over all His works. All Your works shall give thanks to You, O LORD, And Your godly ones shall bless You.” I’ve sensed the challenge of God to quit counting tumors (on scan reports), surgeries, treatments, scans, and procedures in my futile effort to try to quantify, understand, grasp, and control what work He is trying to accomplish through Maggie. He quietly said Enough. Stop. to me. Instead, count My Mercies. They are within reach and easily grasped. The mercies of a stable report. A safe drive to Jackson. A loving family and supportive friends. The Comforter. Peace in a storm. Food on the table. Vacation on the calendar. A future in Heaven. And I join all His works in giving thanks to Him.